Gonna work an event with the ex...

[sekker]

You did great!

I don't think I could have been so gracious.

When you find someone else to fill that hole in your life, you will be able to grow beyond our current feelings.

Good luck!

P.S. I hope the gig paid well...

[kanesa]

Everyday it gets a little bit better. There will come a day you will not think of her at all. And then you will be open for something new.

[NewtonMP2100]

....EXcellent.....!

[Black]

vision63 wrote:
Alright. It went ok. My emotions were on high, but my visible posture was one of take care of business. She brought along her annoying friend to assist. You guys really helped to set me right for the task.

But seeing my ex after so many weeks was so strange. Just looking at that person that adored me for so many years now just being very polite to me was dizzying. But I was still cool. I figured I better stick with haikuman's suggestions.

I was photographing the Zydeco band and she came to fetch me for a shot in another area. She stood there waiting for me to finish up and I stared at her in the face and hugged her for a long time. I told her I missed her every moment of every day. She said that she's not trying to hurt me. I told her that I had forgiven her a while back. I know that losing her mother altered her world.

So we finally finished and had to pack all of the gear up. I knew most of the people at the event so that was nice too. She and I chatted a bit more, said our goodbye's. Then I came home. I'm ready for some good days.

Makes me think of "Loveline' with Dr. Drew and Adam Corolla (Sunday nights haven't been the same without that show)
Drew was dead-on about most things, and one theme they liked to harp on was how men seem able to drift back into relationships, while when a woman is done, she's done.
I've often wondered how that affected lesbian relationships . . .

[vision63]

Black wrote:
[quote=vision63]
Alright. It went ok. My emotions were on high, but my visible posture was one of take care of business. She brought along her annoying friend to assist. You guys really helped to set me right for the task.

But seeing my ex after so many weeks was so strange. Just looking at that person that adored me for so many years now just being very polite to me was dizzying. But I was still cool. I figured I better stick with haikuman's suggestions.

I was photographing the Zydeco band and she came to fetch me for a shot in another area. She stood there waiting for me to finish up and I stared at her in the face and hugged her for a long time. I told her I missed her every moment of every day. She said that she's not trying to hurt me. I told her that I had forgiven her a while back. I know that losing her mother altered her world.

So we finally finished and had to pack all of the gear up. I knew most of the people at the event so that was nice too. She and I chatted a bit more, said our goodbye's. Then I came home. I'm ready for some good days.

Makes me think of "Loveline' with Dr. Drew and Adam Corolla (Sunday nights haven't been the same without that show)
Drew was dead-on about most things, and one theme they liked to harp on was how men seem able to drift back into relationships, while when a woman is done, she's done.
I've often wondered how that affected lesbian relationships . . .
I'm a man of extreme pride. If I didn't believe that she loved me as much as I believe she still does then I would be able to handle this properly. I do not desire anyone that doesn't desire me back. I will survive this. If there is such a thing as Karma, I'm getting my due. I've made women feel exactly like I do now. I know I'm a good person, but my younger days were my younger days. I'm paying for that. When I recover from this, which seems impossible now, but when I do, I absolve myself of past sins.