I have a new meaning for "broken hearted," at least according to my doctor.

[rjmacs]

I love you, GeneL, and am so very sad to read this. Please don't ever feel like you're a burden - the whole reason for community is to build a place of comfort and support.

I don't have any great advice, but some good mentions have been made here already. Seek consultation from the best of the best - you are worth it. I know it's hard not to despair, so I'm reminding you that you have folks out here rooting for you, thinking of you, sending love your way...

I, for one, still dream of a margarita at Dana Point harbor with you...