08-20-2019, 12:06 PM
I really hate to say this, but I am terrified because of all my inability to do deal with all the sudden and dramatic changes that I am faced with.
I have been doing my best to cope with needing to find a place to live, but there's been nothing available for the meager income that I have.
In the past, I have been doing something that paid enough for me to have a comfortable place to live. Now I am finding myself unable to afford a place that will allow me to soften the shock of being cut off from the place where I "nested" for twenty years.
So much of my difficulty is emotional. I am finding that at 81 I don't have the resilience to adapt that I've had in the past.
Having been ill and hospitalized for six months I hadn't even considered that I would be locked out of the place that I called home for the last twenty years.
I have appreciated the kind words and suggestions that I have received, but I have come full circle to the point where kind words aren't enough to get me past the dead end that I've come to.
I have exhausted all of my ideas and energy and I just don't know what I am going to do.
I'm on borrowed time as far as remaining in the hospital and I don't know where I am going to go from here.
Outside of a miracle, I don't have any idea what I can do to make my life bearable. No place to live, no relationship that I can count on, there seems to be nothing else for me. I seem to have lost the spark that in the past I would call on when I was faced with a tough situation.
I don't know how I can go on like this.
I have been doing my best to cope with needing to find a place to live, but there's been nothing available for the meager income that I have.
In the past, I have been doing something that paid enough for me to have a comfortable place to live. Now I am finding myself unable to afford a place that will allow me to soften the shock of being cut off from the place where I "nested" for twenty years.
So much of my difficulty is emotional. I am finding that at 81 I don't have the resilience to adapt that I've had in the past.
Having been ill and hospitalized for six months I hadn't even considered that I would be locked out of the place that I called home for the last twenty years.
I have appreciated the kind words and suggestions that I have received, but I have come full circle to the point where kind words aren't enough to get me past the dead end that I've come to.
I have exhausted all of my ideas and energy and I just don't know what I am going to do.
I'm on borrowed time as far as remaining in the hospital and I don't know where I am going to go from here.
Outside of a miracle, I don't have any idea what I can do to make my life bearable. No place to live, no relationship that I can count on, there seems to be nothing else for me. I seem to have lost the spark that in the past I would call on when I was faced with a tough situation.
I don't know how I can go on like this.